so pretty!

So I was looking to order some flowers for a friend of mine and was trying to get some inspiration. I really know nothing about flowers but thought that maybe if I looked over the web I would find some inspiration. First place that I called the lady was so rude and was obviously frustrated with my lack of knowledge. Then I called Stems where Lulie (Martin) Wallace had her gorgeous art show, but they didn't answer and I need the immediate gradification of ordering something at that very moment. And the I called Out of Hand!

The lady was so nice and said that she could make something gorgeous with my budget. She asked me what the event was for, and what colors I was looking for. I referenced their blog and one of the photos and she said it could be done and reassured me they had some gorgeous blues and purples in the shop!



I cannot wait to go pick them up tomorrow, I hope they are as pretty as I am excited!

Race for the Cure

Please support me and this great cause that will benefit all of us girls (and the men too)!

http://lowcountry.info-komen.org/site/TR/Events?px=10464209&pg=personal&fr_id=2260&s_subsrc=bfgetwordout&s_src=boundlessfundraising

Read on to see why this means so much to me...or you can skip that and just go straight to the website and donate! Or you can go to the website and sign up to run October 15th, 2011, Daniel Island, SC.




Many of you may not know this because it was a personal experience that wasn't so light and funny and therefore didn't really make it to the blog but here it is... also I am going into a few details only because since this experience several people have contacted me about their breast lumps and so maybe it will help someone else??

Again...Read on to see why this means so much to me...or you can skip that and just go straight to the website and donate!

April 2011 I found a hard lump in my right breast. It was about the size of a peanut and very sore (which is probably because I became obsessed with it and kept feeling it). I contacted my OBGYN to get a clinical breast exam, ok lets be honest I called my OBGYN hysterical and demanded to be seen that week!
When I went to the exam she attempted to aspirate the lump and got nothing out, she said since it was very symmetrical that she didn't worry as much about it but that since it was not fluid filled I should go to a specialist to confirm it was not cancer. CANCER! You have got to be kidding me I am 28 and healthy and this can't be happening. I waited 2 long weeks to be seen by the specialist all the while ending the semester which included final exams...I was stressed to say the least!
So the day of the exam I am confident that it is nothing and my dad and I make our way over to the doctor. We pull into the parking lot and I see the sign...



I look up and see the pink ribbon in the sign and realize it is going to be a long day. So they do an ultrasound, which by the way they told me that that is better for younger women because our breasts are more muscular vs mammograms for older women because they are more fatty. The doctor came in to discuss our options...watchfully wait to see if it grows or take a core biopsy.

Core biopsy the way it was explained to me "oh we put a small probe into your breast and take a small sample of tissue out and you are numbed before and really feel no pain just pressure, and you can get your results back by the end of the week!" That option sounded good to me I could get results back with little discomfort and have piece of mind and get good results and move on with my life. I am still glad I did it but lets be honest it hurt like a biotch!


and this is not my breast, I love my readers and am not that modest but sorry google images will have to do!

And did I mention to take this "small sample" they take 3 and it is literally a gun that makes this loud shooting noise to chew its way through your tissue? It feels like you are getting punched in the chest and the swelling and bruising for about the week after looked like it too.

So if you are still reading and not totally grossed out by now the conclusion of the story is : Yes I have a tumor in my breast, no it is not cancer, and I have to follow up at the beginning of the year with another ultra sound as long as it isn't getting bigger (which it isn't!). I will most likely have to get it removed in the future and alot of that again is weather it grows over time, we shall see. In the mean time I still feel the lump, I have a scar where they took the sample, and I am reminded everyday how close I was to cancer (and yes I am at greater risk now for getting it in the future).

All of that being said I would love for you to support the cause that will raise money to continue to fight for womens tatas everywhere! Donate $ or run it with me I would love to have your support.

Yummy!

In an attempt to save money and eat healthy I have been looking for some new inspirational food blogs (you know like one for real people that can't spend all day cooking, no offense pioneer woman).

I just found this site it looks awesome! I definately want to find a delicious meal off of this site...

http://www.ourbestbites.com/

And I still cannot figure out how to directly like to things...sorry hopefully yall can be old school and copy and paste?!

Sunday = Selfreflection =

Since starting school I have learned a tremendous amount of knowledge. I can teach patients how to prevent diabetes, how to clean a trach, and techniques to reduce pain (this is just a few things that I have learned!). The biggest thing I have learned in nursing school though is that alot of illnesses and injuries can be prevented. I mean come on people buckle up, wear a helmet, get up off your behind and go for a walk, eating 5 bags of potatoe chips in a day is not good for you etc. etc. I don't understand what is so hard about this...why don't you get it?
Then I look at my own life and realize I too have lots of self control issues. The other night I ate a burger and fries at Triangle...which by the way was amazing!...I mean come on Bee it cannot be good for you to eat that late! I go for a run and when Pandora stops working decide to cut my run a mile short...come on running before the invention of headphones is unheard of! I let annie pretty much do whatever she wants and even make excuses for her when she misbehaves. I am often messy and can let clean laundry go days before I fold it and put it away. I eat unhealthy food out becuase I would rather ______________ than go to the grocery store.
So the question is how am I supposed to teach patients how to change their behaviors when I myself have little self control? So that is going to be what I am going to work on for the next day, week, month, forever. Is being more intentional and discipined about pretty much every area of my life.

Titus 1:8 ESV
But hospitable, a lover of good, self-controlled, upright, holy, and disciplined.

2 Timothy 1:7 ESV
For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

I am starting at this very moment...putting down the blog and trying to go to sleep before 10pm so I can wake up at 5:45 am for work.

Dreaming of Hawaii...

After I graduate I want to get a job. I want to get a job to save sick little children and help them get better. I also want to make money so that I can go on a fabulous trip. Here are a few pictures I have in my mind on what that trip would include:

So apparently I am not a Tom Boy?!

I always thought of myself as a bit of a tomboy. Maybe of the spice girls sporty spice. Well I have come to realize that I am a bit of a girly girl. Yesterday I was at Dick's with the boys getting some new running shorts. Giles took the opportunity to inform me that everyday I either wear something with pink or purple at least once a day...so the choice of my teal shorts suprised him. Really?! When I got home and looked in my closet sure enough he is pretty right.

Later on he rented a movie and told me that it was a love story...as is every other movie. Now there are some war movies with a grain of romance in them, but this was not at all! There was a girl in the movie about 5 minuites total. Why couldn't he have rented Bridesmaids (which I still haven't seen!).

So I thought that I would take this day to post about all things girly...

I got a new candle at Target yesterday which Parker informed me this morning smells sweet and pretty...YES!

I got the Traget brand called sugar blossom and it is amazing! $4.99 makes it extra enjoyable!

The shorts that I got were grey and pink but I figured they would be perfect for the Race for the Cure in October! Maybe I could time myself with this watch..hint hint if someone wants to buy it off amazon for me :)


Finally I have to get my nursing school picture taken at the end of September these are some of the looks I am debating between....

I love reesey cup!

So fun and girly!

Where to start...?

When I haven't blogged in forever I never know how to start again. So I recap the past 6 months or do I just start back with my usual randomness??? I thought I would start with randomness.

A couple weeks agon it rained for two days straight. I trudged to class getting my shoes soaked the whole time wondering why I had been so cheap not to get rain boots. So I bought rain boots, on sale, free shipping they are so cute! But of course since getting them in the mail 10 days ago (but who is counting?)it hasn't rained one drop. I have suddenly become fascinated by the weather wondering when the next down pour will be so that I can debut their cuteness. Until then...